Dec 8, 2011

Who the hell is that?

As this year closes I've been reflecting on this year's blogging and well, I feel like I spent most of 2011 burned out of it all.  I was definitely less driven, and my reviews took a beating because of it.  I would sit down to write a review, and would be stumped on what to write.  The only thing coming to mind would be either "It's great, read it" or "it's bad, save your money".  Slowly I got behind on reviews and couldn't muster enough care to deal with it.  I know that I don't want to stop, but I also know changes have to be made.  First thing that came to mind was the review.  I decided that i'm going to write a review however best I can get forth what I'm trying to say.  One day it may be bullets with random thoughts of why I loved something or didn't(already have that done, posting tomorrow), the next review could be a three paragraph formal review.  Just whatever..

I think I might have stifled myself into what I thought a book blogger should be than who's truly me.   I look back at some of my reviews and i'm stunned of how little of me I actually see.  WTF!  No one but my immediate family and 2 friends (that don't read and care) know about my blog, and none of them read it.  I think if some read it they wouldn't believe it is my blog.  A little about myself and my quirkiness:  I cuss like a sailor.  I dress fashionably but conservatively (my husbands calls it a classy look). Imagine a conservatively dressed women cussing like a sailor..that's me.  I also ramble shamelessly and have been known to do random dancing in odd occasions.  I am also a master bullshitter.  I can bullshit with the best of them.  On the other hand I'm moody, and I hate order.  Tell me to turn left and I will turn right, just because. I totally feel like I am censoring myself and that is something I never do, but for some reason I do here.  

I'm truly hoping 2012 is a better blogging year for me.  I'm  predicting it will be. I hope this doesn't bother anyone, but if it does O fucking well.  Can't please everyone.


  1. Oh, I've been struggling with this, too, writing about things I think others want to write about rather than what I want to write about. Plowing through these reviews of books that I didn't connect with, good or bad, because they are current and important and everybody is reading them. I took a step back, and reassessed, and dove back in. I thought about my blog as an extension of me: if a book doesn't say anything about me or how I view the world (agrees with it or goes against it) then I don't bother with it.

    Don't give up! Just step back, and look with fresh eyes.

    FWIW, I love your blog--just as it is.

  2. I agree with you. This year was awful for me in reading/blogging because of other stuff going on, but I would feel anxiety about it and WOW, that's ridiculous! I feel like if I'm not posting reviews multiple times a week and reading all the up and coming books that I don't "fit in" with the community. It's ridiculous. I need to just focus on making my blog what I want just for me without worrying about any pressure!

  3. Wow! This is jus what I needed to read today! Thanks so much for the post and comments. I have definitly been in a reader/blog slump the last few months. It's felt like a chore rather than something I love to do. I like you hit it right on the head-your personality should not get lost in the review. Very little of my true self has come through my reviews because....well I'm not sure why. Enough! I look forward to your future reviews and you've inspired me to make a few changes too!
    Thank you!

  4. Never be afraid to be you. We will still love you... probably even more! :)


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